The composer is miffed, ticked even. They were spiraling one night and specifically seeking input from the Conductor (Sam), days went and passed, and no response was given. This angered the Composer, because things have been interrupted for similar spirals in the past. And the Watch Maiden (Noxxy) agreed with the following message.
NOTE: THESE MESSAGES WERE WRITTEN IN A STATE OF ANGER AND SORROW, THEY ARE USEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING MY THOUGHTS AT THE TIME, BUT THEY SHOULDN'T BE TAKEN AS GOSPEL.
""I guess my main concern these last few days, is that I'm not getting back what I put in in this relationship, I have gotten you gifts I think you would love, I have donated to you in times of strife, I actively gave you the role of conductor where you refuse to engage with the project on the other altars, instead focusing on Dreamspace, the one that was already doing well, and took the least amount of effort on your end, I was loyal during your moments of spirals, trying to understand and possibly even help the situation, yet here I was struggling in your DMs with a personal issue expecting the same level of comfort or even a reply. No response, because I was "too difficult to deal with", and all you do on my server is just brag about how powerful you are as a cope because physically you cannot even help your own BF out by having a discussion with him. This is what most people see in you, an exaggerator, a coward, someone who claims big things about themselves yet cannot cope with the reality outside of that fantasy." ~ Me to sam in DMs"
With these events the composer has decided to impeach the current conductor and let the community decide the next right hand.
More messages will be listed below for context.
Moth: It's like I feel like I'm just borderline unpleasant to be around to some people, I'm self conscious, at what cost. To the point where it's hard to go through mundane life without some sort of substance.
Sam: Pro tip
You're easier to be around when that's not your main topic of conversation
Moth: I know, it's why I wish I could lie to myself, do as the Romans do. But it never stops plaguing my head.
[5:32 PM]
I chose 24/7 awareness over sanity
[5:32 PM]
I don't regret my decision, it's just hard
[5:33 PM]
Some days it's worse than others
Sorry if I'm annoying you, I just really need to vent about this, and I thought you would understand.
[6:12 PM]
This isn't to say I think I am above it all, or that life stuff isn't interesting to me anymore
[6:13 PM]
I just worry that I'm fucked up for not caring about drama on a worldly scale
[6:13 PM]
That I'm fucked up for not reacting like someone insulted me for something that may as well be an insult
[6:14 PM]
Everyone's like "You should be worried about everything" trying to bring me back and I HATE IT!!!!!!
[6:15 PM]
I WANNA PUNCH THEIR FACE IN AND FORCIBLY REMOVE THEIR TEETH
[6:15 PM]
TRYING TO DISRUPT MY PEACE, GODDAMNIT, AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY
[6:17 PM]
I'm calm I swear it
[6:17 PM]
I just wanna stop caring
[6:17 PM]
Or being forced to care
Moth Wan (MW) — 1/5/2025 6:21 PM
I'm just some alien sack of dogshit to you aren't I?
[6:23 PM]
Someone to use
[6:24 PM]
I'm gonna go take pm meds, and get a bite to eat
[6:25 PM]
Love you even if i'm going through a bit of a crisis.
Moth Wan (MW) — 1/5/2025 7:13 PM
I'M FEELING EMOTIONALLY BETTER AND IMMEDIATELY ONCE I DID MY NOSE STARTED BLEEDING
January 6, 2025
Moth Wan (MW) — Yesterday at 9:35 PM
So you won't talk to me when i'm going through a thing, yet I listened to you when you went through a thing
[9:39 PM]
Ok as you wish I am going to stop relying on you
[9:41 PM]
Or attempting to rely on you, because that always ends up in disaster for someone who speaks so high and mighty about themselves
Moth Wan (MW) — Yesterday at 9:46 PM
I guess I gotta be the one pulling all the weight
[9:50 PM]
Once phase #2 comes, if it turns out you were pulling my leg about all the meta stuff, I am expecting complete and utter obedience in that case. (Moth notes that they don't encourage this, this was me being stressed out)
[9:52 PM]
I will make sure you're well taken care of, even now, as I am too stubborn to quit a relationship
Moth Wan (MW) — Yesterday at 10:08 PM
I just wanted you to talk to me last night or this morning, I didn't care if it was really insightful, just didn't want to be talking to a brick wall.
[10:09 PM]
But no, all I got was brick wall, and to be left alone with painful thoughts
[10:09 PM]
Not even a "K" ffs
[10:10 PM]
Silence is a bigger "Fuck You" to me, than just straight up saying "Fuck You"
[10:11 PM]
Because it gives all the room for making things worse if I am actively having social anxiety
Moth Wan (MW) — Yesterday at 11:53 PM
hug gn
January 7, 2025
Moth Wan (MW) — Today at 3:32 PM
I may have gone too far last night, sorry if I did, I tried to remind you that I didn't hate you in there
[3:33 PM]
I got offended because you didn't try to help me at all during that period.
[3:33 PM]
If it was you I would've dropped everything, and I have
Moth Wan (MW) — Today at 3:49 PM
I guess my main concern these last few days, is that I'm not getting back what I put in in this relationship, I have gotten you gifts I think you would love, I have donated to you in times of strife, I actively gave you the role of conductor where you refuse to engage with the project on the other altars, instead focusing on Dreamspace, the one that was already doing well, and took the least amount of effort on your end, I was loyal during your moments of spirals, trying to understand and possibly even help the situation, yet here I was struggling in your DMs with a personal issue expecting the same level of comfort or even a reply. No response, because I was "too difficult to deal with", and all you do on my server is just brag about how powerful you are as a cope because physically you cannot even help your own BF out by having a discussion with him. This is what most people see in you, an exaggerator, a coward, someone who claims big things about themselves yet cannot cope with the reality outside of that fantasy.
[3:53 PM]
Believe me, I want you to prove me wrong here
[3:54 PM]
I don't wanna think I have wasted hours of my life I will never get back, not like my life has much meaning anyways
[3:55 PM]
I'm kinda just here for losers like you to drain dry and throw under a bus
=============================================
Now for the rules
#1: ALL DEMIURGES AND CE ARE ELIGIBLE FOR THE ELECTION
#2: NAL HEADS HAVE A SIMILAR LEVEL OF POWER SO THEY NEED NOT PLATFORM, OR BE ELECTED
#3: SAM CAN PLATFORM FOR HIS RE-ELECTION, WHICH I WOULD LIKE TO SEE HIM PUT HIS MONEY WHERE IS MOUTH IS AND PROVE HE IS WORTHY OF HIS POSITION.
#4: SAM IS NOW A REGULAR CE MEMBER.
#5: ALL CRITICISM WELCOME.
THE ELECTION IS AT 5/25/25
At 2:55 PM EST
DEBATES MAY BE HELD BEFOREHAND DEPENDING ON HOW MANY PEOPLE ACTUALLY CAMPAIGN.
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